These things are supposed to be fun, right?

Man, I am so annoyed today for two reasons.

First, I've been playing PW a bit everyday because of BH. I'm living with some relatives who have awesome wireless (the router is like 6 feet away from me. fuck yeah!) so I figured I'd get hours of grinding, questing, and leveling in, right? No. Putting my possible arthritis and carpal tunnel aside. I spend more time flying from place to place in the game than actually playing the game. It's getting fucking ridiculous. Despite the fact that I've been trying to level up the flight mastery skill when I can, it doesn't seem to help much. That really kicked my ass when I found one of those timed quest books and the quest mobs ended up being on the other side of the map. The closest town didn't have any transfer point available to me so I had no choice but to fly. So, quest is 30 mins. I've got one chance to do it and I'm sitting here flying for 20 minutes to the quest monsters. Shit?! So, I get there will 10 minutes to spare. I know I have to hustle. I get 20 of the 25 mobs before time runs out. Dammit.

It's not like the quest was worth shit. But the fact I failed because I spent 20 minutes flying there really rubs me the wrong way.

And today as if to add insult to injury, I decide to start a new round of quests after finishing up with the last round and BH. (Now that I'm in the 40s, quests don't seem to trigger as much as they used to.) I look at the new quest list and decide that I'll get them by the area they're in. I accidentally flew to Plume City and had to fly all the way back southwest of Etherblade for another quest. Okay... I'm in Vent and a little irritated but alright. I fly ALLLLLL the way back up there and then realize my next quest is going to take me to the far west.

Oh. Hell no. I stand there for a moment wondering if I'm in the mood for this shit and then I just log off. Expansive world is beautiful but not when you have to go to every corner of it all day everyday.

I could teleport, yes. But most of those locations weren't connected to any known teleport location on my map and I need every bit of my money for sharding my equipment. Fuck. I really like PW. I do but I'm not sure if I have the patience for it anymore.

While I'm being a human airline in PW, I'm in Vent, just hanging out. But of course, that isn't going well. First of all, one of the mods is a dick. Calls me a man because I won't talk to him on mic. Even though I told him that I do not like talking and that my mic, which is in my laptop, is garbage. It's not like we actually talk to each other or have anything to say to each other but he keeps nagging me about it and changing my tags, trying to get me to beg him on mic to change it back. One day I ask him to change the tag to something else because it says something like Manly Man or something like that and other people were giving me a hard time for it. I spoke like once or twice, proving that I am a female so he's just being a dick by doing. He says, 'Okay, I'll change it. Oh wait. I've thought of a better tag because I'm so funnay.' Now, I'm Manliest Man. So, now he's just being a dick because a girl won't talk to him. I knew he and his friends were retarded around girls but come on.

So, I'm talking to this other guy who I'm calling my little brother about it. The mod's been harassing him too. He tells me what I was thinking, "Guy's obnoxious because being mod has gone to his head." He says to ignore him. I do exactly that all day. I'm talking with somebody else and I forgot what I said but he comes out of nowhere and he's like, "You need to stop trying to make people believe you're a woman because we all know you're a man." The hell. I don't know about others but I don't like being the butt of a lame joke because people want to be idiots. Eventually, I change my name a bit and take the tag off. Should have done that sooner.

The guy who I talked to about the tag is like, "Omg. What happened to your tag? Why isn't it there anymore?" etc, etc. I'm thinking, "I just talked to him about the tag last night. Is he trolling?" Not wanting to get into an argument, I telll him that I just got rid of it. Now, this dude, the little brother, has been bugging me for like weeks to talk to him, give an phone number/address, send a picture of myself, etc. I've been refusing him for weeks because I'm not comfortable with trading personal information online because that's not what I am there for.

If I wanted to find friends to talk on the phone and trade addresses with, I'd do it with people I meet in real life. Not people who live all the way across the United States.

Now, we had this little brother/sister thing going on. I've always wanted a little brother and he's an only child so it was really cute...for awhile. Then as his birthday started coming up, he started to get more aggressive about wanting my personal info and of course extremely creepy. Mind, he's like 15 (now 16). He starts asking me on MSN if I would get into bed with him, take showers with him, and once he asked if I would have sex with him. Now, all this time I'm thinking, "I know he has to be joking." Just in case, I tell him no because I don't need to get arrested over something like this. The thing that completely turned me off to him was when he asks, (right after asking me about sex again) if I would marry him. I'm like, "What. Are you serious?" He's like, "Yes, I am absolutely serious. I will go across the U.S. so we can meet and get married. I love you." I am speechless. Online and off. I just tell him, "I'm going to go." The next day he apologizes to me and says that he was acting strangely because he was tired. I'm like, "Alright. Let's just forget about it." So, we're talking about normal things and he realizes that I have a webcam because I was using my relatives' computer. He's like, "Omg. turn on your webcam." I made a joke about how cameras explode when I'm in front of them so he sends me an webcam chat invite, which I promptly refuse and he's like, "See, the camera didn't explode since the webcam starts when the invite is sent."

I dunno if this really happens but I still call bullshit.

I tell him outright that I won't be using the webcam and he will not be getting any pictures of me. Also, that the more he asks, the less I am willing to do it.

He's just like, "Well, it's your fault because you won't give me a pic so you'll just have to put up with me asking you."

Where have I heard this before.

I tell him I'm going to bed and he's like, "Accept my webcam invite because I want to show you something." "What." "I can't explain. Just turn it on!" "Your camera won't come on. I swear." I tell him, "No. I'm going to bed." I sign off on him.

So his birthday's coming up and he's expecting a present from me. Expecting might not be the word. He tells me that for his birthday, I owe him either a conversation on the phone or a pic of myself, both of which I have told him I refuse to do. After I refuse him in private chat, he goes in normal vent chat and tells somebody, "She's going to talk to me on the phone for my birthday." I'm like, "What. I never said that." After that, he keeps hinting that I'm going to give him a picture of myself. Okay, keep believing that.

His birthday came up and he got a picture of my room. Disappointed? Oh well.

After his birthday, he starts acting oddly towards me. He'd ask me stupid questions or notice that I like certain things and he'd call me a pervert. So, a few days ago, I am uploading a Nanoha doujin for another user. Despite the fact that he was in chat telling everyone he liked to suck cocks, he's like, "OMG YOUR DOUJIN IS H!! YOUR A PERVERT!! PERVERT!!" He's done this a few times (which was cute at first) but like he's being really annoying. So annoying that the other person tells him to lay off.

Now, today. Coupled with the fact that my wrists are hurting, I've got some obnoxious neckbeard calling me a man, and that I can't play my game like I want to, I'm pretty damn irritated. My 'little brother' only made it all the more worse. First, he tells me I'm disgusting because I made a mild sex joke to another (adult) person. I'm like, "Well. That's just too bad." Next, he's telling me how disgusted and disappointed with me he is and not saying why. One thing I hate is when people are angry at me and don't tell me why exactly. Now, he's complaining about me saying or doing things that he doesn't like and I'm like, "Tell me clearly." I get no answer except, "You're such a pervert. I can't even call you my sister anymore." I'm thinking, "Exactly what kind of person does he think I am?" Now he knows I am not a saint. I never said I was and never tried to be. He's seen me made sex jokes before. Not to mention, he's made some pretty risque comments himself. So, calling me out in regular chat and making me look like some kind of dirty whore is completely unjustified. So, I'm like, "Oh, you forgot why you taken such a liking to me in the first place." He's like, "Wat."

The first time we really talked, it was a really perverted conversation in regular chat. It was like a mock cybering but it was before I knew how old he was. He sent me a private chat and he was all like, "omg you're so cool blah blah blah You seem like a really cool older sister." After I found out how old he was, he asked me if I would do "that kind of stuff" to him in real life. I said, "Nah. It's not my thing." The both of us agreed we'd be like a sister/brother. HE was the one who wanted to get in all my business. HE was the one who wanted me to "do things" to him. HE was the one who got all upset when I had perverted conversation with other people (who could obviously talk like that and not take it seriously). HE was the one who asked me about having sex with him and my virginity and so forth TO MY EMBARRASSMENT.

So you can imagine how upset I was when this kid who got upset because I said I wouldn't do more than hug him if we ever, in the unlikely event, met called me a pervert in regular chat and acted all like he's been a saint all this time.

I told him, "Remember in our first convo how everyone thought we were cybering for real??? And you wanted me to continue???" He's all like, "Oh what. Really now." Like I'm lying or something. I'm really sorry I didn't save those chats. I was too nice because he was acting like I did him wrong when he's the one hassling me because I won't camwhore for him. I told him how the convo went best I could remember. So what does he do?

He spams me with private chat invites. I figured we'd talk this out. But no, he's going to act his age and spam me and shit. I just ignore him. I go to the bathroom and soon after I come back, he's banned because he accidentally spammed someone else and that person told the mod about it so the mod banned him.

Later the mod lifts the ban (the ass is doing it for lulz of course) and he comes back complaining about how he meant to spam somebody else and that the mod doesn't know how to take a joke. Mod's fed up with him and will not allow him in their gaming channel.

Yep. For the lulz.

He private messages me properly this time. And he's like, "What do you think of me?" I'm like, "Whoa hold up. Like an hour ago, I was too disgusting to be your sister." He's like, "But I really like you!!" Godfuckingdamnit. I'm too old for this shit. I tell him, "Look this brother/sister thing, let's not anymore." And that's the last I heard from him. That was like a few minutes ago. Knowing him, (according to the mod, he's a whiny motherfucker and I cannot disagree with this) that will be the last I'll have to deal with him.